I have some pictures to post but before I do I would like to write down some thoughts on this whole experience. This experience has been the hardest thing I've ever gone through in my life and has really shown me how precious and fragile life really is.
I was in the hospital for a total of 10 days and it was really scary. The first admittance was tests for preeclampsia which I found out that I had a severe case that was affecting my kidneys. The only way to get better from it was to have the baby. So Benjamin Michael Williams was born four weeks early. The consequence of waiting any longer could have been seizures for me and death for my infant. Benjamin had trouble breathing on his own and had to have an oxygen mask while his lungs developed. When he was born my first thought was his cry isn't loud enough and I felt really upset because I wasn't well enough to hold my baby until he was three days old. I was realeased from the hospital 4 days before him. He wasn't eating at first and therefore was losing weight. I was terrified and depressed because I couldn't be with my baby.
Meanwhile, I had an internal infection that was getting worse and a hematoma 17 inches in length. I brought Ben home Monday morning. By Tuesday night I had to go to the hospital because of the amount I bled. I passed out in the hospital and was found to be anemic. I was given 2 units of blood during my stay and the infection got bad enough that the wound opened up in 5 different places. My doctor ordered a wound vac for me and a home health nurse 3 times per week. I feel blessed to be alive. I was there an additional 4 days.
I love my children and would not trade them for anything in the world and if I had known prior to this all of the pain I still would have gone through with it. As for having more children let me just say that I want to be alive for the two that I've got. My husband and children mean the world to me and I'm so happy to be a wife and a mother.
The “official” blog of Melinda and Christopher Williams and family
2 comments:
I didn't know you had gone back to the hospital!! I'm so sorry. You are now a member of the S.W.A.T. team, or Sacrifice With Ample Tears. Some people only know how to get babies here the HARD way!! You are having a great attitude, though--there's nothing more WORTH all that pain & trouble. Love you!
I remember you telling me that your pregnancy with Alex was the worst thing you had gone through. Looks like it was just a warm up. I thank God you are ok and that we live in a time when doctors and hospitals can keep us pregnant women alive and our babies. Keep the blog posted so I can see how you are doing. :-)
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